Ah… we are going into a weekend. And a special one at that. In America, we honor mothers this Sunday. Those women who do things we cannot even begin to grasp until we have children of our own. My mom’s been gone for some time now. In fact Mother’s Day is also the anniversary of Mom leaving the planet, as sometimes happens. Mostly I tend to think this sux. However, it simply is and there is nothing I can do to change it.
Sometimes I think of myself as an orphan, with no one to guide me, or answer those questions that come up, here and there, about this or that.
Since Dad left the planet the day before my 55th birthday, I’ve been the oldest person in my entire family. No parents or grandparents, no aunts or uncles, just me and a ton of younger relatives.
I’m not often in close contact with my siblings, nor most of their kids and grandkids, but I’m all over keeping track of my kids and their kids! It’s just a good time to think about this and that about motherhood and what being a mother has meant to me in my life.
If I never do anything else in my life of note, the raising of 9 children to be independent, courageous adults, who welcome change, celebrate diversity and strive daily to make positive differences to those around them, is enough. I am proud of my efforts with my children and I am quite happy to move into a time when my role in their lives is quite different. I am supportive and loving and strive not share unasked for advice and accept their choices as their own. It is a challenge but I’m getting better at it.
So I miss my mom. And I am grateful to be a mother. And I honor all the women in my life who played and still play a role in supporting me in a sweet motherly way.
I am one blessed woman, remembering my own mother, this weekend, honored to be the mother of the Cross Clan, delighted to be the grandmother to at least 10 grandkids, and a few we might as well adopt and I am very grateful for my dear girlfriends who stepped into my heart and took up the slack when my mom crossed over. May all the women reading this feel appreciated and loved by me and many others, for the efforts women make to raise good people. ❤ ❤ ❤